It's Hard to Make the Good Things Last

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Fun with Google. Fun fun fun. Check out JD's new funny funny link for clarification. No, I don't think it's real, and you shouldn't either, but isn't it fun to pretend? Click on the sidebar that says "poetry by author" if you want to read his other poems about heartbreak, love, or religion. Hoooooo hooo

Less than four hours until the lamest month ever is over. thank christ

Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm kicking my group project's ass all over the place, despite the nothing I have to work with, and I just made a fucking powerpoint presentation for it and finished the extremely convoluted group paper so it's NEARLY finished

Also, I forced Ashleigh to promise earlier that she will arrange fun sleepovers for me as often as possible when I am in town, because my sister will also be in town, and sometimes having the Davis Three all in one teeny apartment leads to friction, and I won't have a car or anywhere specific to go to escape, so I'll be counting on nice invitations to slumber parties from you all, and also on being chauffered around the entire time I'm home. So, that plus a birthday party isn't too much to ask, right?

And what I want for Xmas, if you're planning on shopping for me, which you're of course not but it never hurts to be specific, is for you to go buy yourself a goddamn plane ticket and come visit southern california in the near future, because you must believe me when I say it is awesomely hard to be bored here, and I know you're jonesing for the beach, and all the hedonistic unnecessities they have here would be so much more fun if you were here. Or Ikea gift cards. Because there are rooms in this apartment that are comically sparse, and it distracts me like clutter. Organized chaos, has to be a very specific organized mess for me to function.

So, Chris Daniels, when will you be home and do you wanna go see LOTR with me when you get there? And if anyone wants to see any movies at all, I almost definitely have not seen them and probably want to, so let's do that. And sis if you want to go to Chicago at some point let's do that, I promised grandma I would try to get up there but haven't a car. Raedy when are you coming to Eville to visit we should plan one of the sleepovers to coincide with your being there so as to best facilitate Karaoke Party and I'd like to be drunk most of the time I'm home

And I'll be sleeping about 14 hours a day, so I'll be awake when you're free. Wow, I'm really looking forward to seeing all you guys. Only 17 more days! Whee!

Time to go churn out yet ANOTHER paper

Captain Bitter

I'm taking a wee tiny break from wanting-to-kill-myself paper writing to roll my eyes at how badly people who are supposed to be smart write scientifically. Also, no one but Raedy will understand how hard it is to track down professors who are supposed to write you recommendation letters as the deadline approaches; I have three out of four still ignoring my increasingly frantic reminders that the letters are due this Wednesday, which is not helping my overall stress level. Cuz you know what? If I don't have fucking recommendations, I can kiss the chance of funding goodbye, which isnt' funny in light of how much busting my ass I've been (and still have to do) doing for months only to have them crap out on me at the last second.

If I were a pop star, I wouldn't let Shania Twain's stylist anywhere near me

oh wait there's a fat virginal crossword puzzle over there calling my name, gotta go

My Inner Demons Compel Me To Be Here

So we'll do this in two parts; one where I bitch and one where I espouse all the things I'm happy for.

Red and Yellow and Pink and Blue
1.) I am tired of editing together bits of slop my fellow group members send me that don't make sense logically or temporally if you read them straight through; however, they are chock full of words like "evinced," and not in the right context. It's like if a certain ex-boyfriend of mine had decided to write his memoirs and asked me to smart them up for him.

2.) I am not pleased that I have been holding my breath to receive a comp cd in the mail for a whole week that I don't really believe is coming, but it's so exciting to get something in the mail I can't help it.

3.) I forgot to take my comp cds I just made with us when we drove to Phoenix. So, we listened to the same three JD hates over and over and over

4.) It took us eight (8) hours of continuous driving to get there Wednesday. Eight. Eight HOURS. I don't think I hate anything more than driving inland from here and having to go through Riverside where ALL the traffic from the whole southern half of the state is funnelled into one huge construction lane, and then people are such assholes that they probably meant to crash into one another on the freeways and back up traffic for such a long time that people got out of their cars and walked their dogs as we sat there in the middle of the desert with nothing to look at. Eight fucking hours, and the last half my car was out of oil (?!) and shaking and we were 6,000 ft. in the air driving straight up the side of a mountain that we couldn't see because it was dark with 15mph curves that really meant 15mph

Oh, and hence unless it is important, I don't want to ever go to the huge Palm Springs outlet mall when you come visit. Unless you REALLY want to go, because I hate Riverside that much.

5.) If I don't start sleeping like a normal person soon, I am going to a psychiatrist. I am really really worried about it. especially because I had a dream this morning where eminem flicked a tick off my forehead and then I had a third-eye scar there

6.) I think all my clothes are shrinking when I wash them. That, or, as is probably the case, I have gained eight thousand pounds since becoming a sedentary grad student and soon won't be able to move from the couch; or, fit into one plane seat.

7.) The next week of my life, until Friday at noon, is going to suck huge balls. I don't even want to think about it too hard here. It just blows. all over the place.

8.) I need a cigarette, a tanning bed, and a haircut almost as bad as I need a caffeine IV, a full night's sleep, and a bottle of rum. On a deserted island. With all my favorite people.

9.) When you're too busy to sort out your health insurance and get your ass to the gynocologist, and you run out of birth control a couple months ago and you have actual menstrual cramps for the first time in like 7 years, that sucks.

10.) I am sad that my birthday's going to be very probably very dull...JD will have started both his jobs by then and I'll be done with school, so I'll be sitting around studying for the GRe subject test. Hint. Bored off my ass. Hint. With the phone in easy reach. Hint. Also, I am distarught that LOTR comes out on the day I fly home, which means JD and I can't go see it, which means unless one of you volunteers I have no one to look forward to seeing it with that will clap and cheer like all the hardcore Tolkien dorks do when it's opening night. Maybe there's a midnight show.
Hint. Ahem, volunteers? Hint.


Orange and Purple and Blue

1.) I am thankful for family, period. It never used to matter so much to me, but it's so nice that we can go hang out with JD's grandparents and I feel so welcome (you've all met JD's mom, right? they're her parents and it runs in the family) that it doesn't matter that the drive was the worst of my life, or we go to Coco's for thanksgiving dinner and I have cinnamon french toast, because they insist on taking us to see the world's largest collection of themed gingerbreads houses and the world's largest display of animated xmas lights in a park you drive through. And mom and Jenny, whose non-presence made it feel acutely NON-holidayish for me, who I can't wait to see....it's just such a reassurance that there are people who care unconditionally whether you're blood or not, and I love all of them (and all of you as well, pseudo-family!) back

2.) Dave Walsh calling JD's cell phone, apparently drunk, at 3am last night, the only night this week I've been sleeping at 3am, to announce that he, Toni, Dustin, and Shane miss us, and saying that he thought with the time difference it wouldn't be too late to call us. Hahahahahahahahahaha

3.) The Two Towers extended version

4.) The fact that the end of this quarter is in sight. And things are getting done.

5.) JD's fucking kick ass job at Rickenbacker

6.) Mind-numbingly easy crossword puzzles

7.) I have a working car, a fabulous apartment, clothes, food, my best friend, a bed to sleep on, everything I need, plus all the stuff that goes along with Indiana that I get to look forward to

8.) Being at a school I like, in a program I love, with people I get along with and can hang out with, with enough support to feel like I'll be as successful as possible here

9.) Dreams that wake me up thinking they're still real for a few seconds, especially ones with people I don't normally get to see

10.) Everyone I care about is relatively healthy and happy.

what the hell else would I possibly need or want

Oh, maybe a month-long birthday party celebration. Please.
But that's it

Time to watch Legolas Fest II and then sleep until I have to pick my friend up at the airport. Come visit. Lovels to you all, even those of you who are too cool to update or write anymore.